Just sitting here listening to Casting Crowns. How blessed I am to have a Savior. To know that I am truely loved. That my sins are forgiven and that I strive for perfection and am loved even when I fall.
Here I am, layed off and board. Not knowing what my future holds for me. But feeling peace. And when the storms start to stir (those feelings of fear) I turn to the same Savior to give me strength to get me though.
Reading a few postings of athiests am just stunned at how they attack believers. I guess some people who profess being a christian use the 'bible' to thump those who will not believe. The profession of them going to hell when they die really does not work. I mean, if I didn't believe in God I wouldn't believe in a hell either. I asked one of my friends about that. He, as far as I know, is still and athiest. I asked him, "When you die, where will you go?" He replied..."Well, I guess I will just sceece to exist." It didn't bother him in the least. Heck I am not sure I could live my life knowing that I don't know what happens in death to me. To sceece to exist would scare me..and I would live in fear. I held nothing against him but told him that I woud pray for him. He said to me not to. Broke my heart.
Now onto the readings. They call us living after a fantasy. I know fantasy, it was what I lived in when I wasn't saved. It was heartbreaking, hurt, anger and alot of emptyness. You do not know the touch of God unless you ask. I ask and have felt His touch. I've seen the healed before me and I seen the hurt moved to bravery. I've seen one girl that was just a shell of herself becasue of the hurts of life blossom into a loving christian girl who dances before the Lord with all her heart. She is attending college today. Alone. She only has a sister. A father who used her and abandoned her and an aunt who isn't so nice to her. But it is becasue of God's love this girl is free. It is ok to question a christian, becasue I question them, even question myself at times. Do I show the love of Christ to others? Am I judgemental to my fellow man? I catch myself too. And just ask Him to forgive me.
One thing to say to those who believe they are gay. God DOES love you. It is the sin that He doesn't love. In all creation, humans are the only ones that have free will. If you look at nature, it does what it does becasue that is what it was created to do. It worships the creator. God. Each animal and plant does as it was made to do. Grow and produce. We on the other hand have the choice to follow God or not to. To produce, live and die. Eveyone sees God as a hateful God. But let me ask you a question. Put yourself in a Dad position. If your child or children were doing something that you knew that would harm them..harm them to the point of death, what length would you go to, to prevent it?
Am not sure I am making any sence of this but hey...as the title says "What goes though a womans mind" lol.
Post a Comment