Thankyou Mr. Presadent for signing a bill that will kill more babies each year. Thanks. I've heard so much rederic about the war and how many soldgers were lost. As General William Tecumseh Sherman said "War is hell."

My heart greaves for these men and woman who laid down thier lives for me to live and others to live....now get this..THEY had a choice to do so. A choice.

Babies...do not. The moment that sperm hits that egg and they connect...that is life. Yes, folks that is a baby. How funny that we sign this in..and stemcell recerch comes into play. As you can see I am WAY against this whole deal.

And what makes it worse? I am paying for it unwillingly.

I do not hate the Presadent, as a believer, I must respect the office and pray for my overseerers. No matter if I agree with them or not.
And I will pray. And pray for forgiveness.

Babies do not have a choice in being born. Or being concieved.

Am sure I am not the only one that reflects on what happened to them in the year that has gone by.

This year had been a turning point in my walk with Christ. I've learned that I am a 'me' person. Yeah yeah, funny as it may seem. Me people are the last to know they are 'me' people. I also found out who I was in Christ and who I really was. Some people go all there lives trying to be someone else. Someone everyone expects them to be and looses the real person that God created. I had done that. I was so frustrated and confused for the first 5 months of the year that  I didn't want to do anything. I had an attitude with my pastors, the head of the band, you name it I was a mess. My eyes were open when I bought a book "Managing your Emotions" By Joyce Meyer. Honestly felt like I was going crazy in those months until I read this book. Explained what I was going though and why. What triggered the things I had done and how to just forgive myself.

I think it is harder to forgive yourself then others. You look at yourself everyday. It was getting to the point where I just wanted to not go anywhere.

BUT that is all changed. Yes I do get a little down or confused but that doesn't hold me down.

Now this month I was laid off from work. With GM laying off and shutting down their plants temporarily I do not know when I will be called back. Next week I am going to look for work else where. I don't like being on unemployment. Mainly because I can not do anything lmol. All money goes towards bills.

Am thankful that my brother allows me to stay with him. This Christmas I couldn't buy any gifts for anyone. I felt bad but it is what it is. But I was SO so blesssed this year. My brothers three boys when and had their picture taken. And I got a beautiful picture of the three of them. (fighting tears) I watched these three young men grow up. I tried to encourage them to do their best. They are three good boys. My brother also helped my pay my car and cell phone (now I will pay the guy back when the Income taxes get here) He also got me my favorite bath soaps and a gas card. (which helps me out so I don't have to worry about getting gas) My nephew gave me a down comforter. I almost cried. It is so soft and warm and beautiful shade of light green.

I got to visit some of my family members. It was good to see my cousins again. And my aunts and uncle. Also had the usual get-together at my older brothers house. It was so fun. His youngest boy brought his WII down. And we played Rock Band lmol. And a few other games. HAD A BLAST. We play games and just veg out all night.

So all around - it has been a good year. I give God all the glory in this. I know what I would of been like if I didn't have His love. I would of been dead. I used to be quite suicidal. I don't think I would of made it after my mom's death. So I am alive today because of Jesus.

Weather you believe me or not, doesn't matter. I just know where I was when He knocked.

Happy New Years everyone. May next year bright you GREAT joy and many blessings.

Not sure if I have ever mentioned this but I have a graphics business. It is a pastime for me. I enjoy it greatly.
Yahoo groups are really good to put yourself out there. People buy graphics from you to create web pages, signatures and such. But lately people have been promoting this, "I am short on cash right now so I am cutting prices.." deal.

Am sure everyone is hurting for cash. I know I am. Everyone gets in a slump once in awhile but to use this to get money because of it?? I wouldn't see any store doing this. "We can't meet our payments this month so right now we are having a sale."

Now I am not saying that it is wrong, but it is anoying. Expecally when I really need the cash now becasue my factory is slowing down for winter. Well now I have a flat tire and can not get it fixed at the moment. Am not really sure how am going to pay for everything I need to do. lmol but I have to do it. Oh well. Don't have the cash, nuttin I can do.